read it in books - echo & the bunnymen

i got my reply from elaine early this morning. she'd been "a bit tied up" (her words) since the party. and would i fancy lunch later in the week?

i checked my phone and suggested thursday. useless for her, so we arranged it for friday.

two lunch dates this week. Ms Simone wants me to meet Her tomorrow. partly social, partly intelligence-gathering, partly (i think) She wants to pump me to see where i've got to with that Female Supremacy book She sent me. which i'd better throw myself into again tonight.

the introduction and the first three chapters set the scene. it's written by a Woman (She hates the term Domme; says it's a male fantasy-myth) but is full of sections written by males; Her one and others owned by Her Friends.

these early chapters are on the reality of ownership/slavery, with special emphasis (in chapter two) on the adjustments both parties must make for the relationship to work.

chapter three deals with what She calls "the male-sub's dichotomy". that crisis point where each male has to decide whether to stay in the fantasy - or whether he wants to risk it all, cross the abyss and take his rightful place at the feet of one of The Superior Gender.

i got torn into the book after Ms Simone's phonecall (which only lasted an hour). after that, i had a quick surf, stopping at fetlife, where Stella'd left me a message. chatty, without giving anything away, She apologised for yesterday's third degree, saying She'd been confused by tam's relationship with sadie - and hadn't realised it all happened four years ago.

it was then i noticed the friend request. from sadie mae glutz. i clicked on ok, wondering if this was the best move i could make. when i looked on ic, i must've still had her on my friends-list. there was a semi-breathless memo from her, telling me she'd added me on fetlife.

there was also a message from harold, asking how i was finding the Female Supremacy group. i wrote back, brimming with positivity. i'd almost finished my personal history and was about to post that up to the group.

i realise i'm feeling more at home in fantasy worlds just now than i am in the so-called real world. whether on-line communities or this Mistress/slave world i'm building with Ms Simone, i'm more comfortable Here than in the daylife.

maybe this is nature's way of telling me to find another job.